Blog #3 Those who can teach, should
May 27, 2011 3 Comments
When I was in tenth grade, my uncle, a person I look up to and love, asked me what I wanted to be when I got older, and what college I wanted to go to. I responded with confidence and excitement, “I want to be a teacher”! Now, my uncle likes to joke around and have fun; however, his response, which I view as a joke, really dug into my skin and angered me. He said, “Ashleigh, come on. Haven’t you ever heard the quote, ‘Those who can’t do, teach’ ”? Because I did not want to back talk my uncle, I brushed off his “joke” even though it hurt my feelings. I have wanted to be a teacher since I was young. I am sure I am not alone, but I used to play teacher with imaginary students in my basement. I have mentioned this to a few others in this seminar, but I am pursuing a duel major in early education and speech pathology. Even though I have another interest in mind, teaching has still been my passion since I can remember. I will be honest; I did not think that teaching was as demanding, exhausting, and challenging as it is. I never realized what I was in for when I decided to enter college as an education major. Teaching is NOT easy, and not everyone is fit for the job, just like not everyone is fit to be an engineer. There is a fire inside me wanting to talk to my uncle and to prove to him that the quote is absolutely, one hundred percent false.
Through this practicum experience, I have learned that teaching is not just regurgitating material so that students can write it down and try to learn it. Teaching is a continuous, eight hour presentation every week day, where one needs to be prepared, have a lesson plan or agenda of what needs to be done in a certain amount of time in the most effective way, find strategies for a controlled classroom, have effective classroom management, and much more. Teachers do not just recite information. They have to speak in a way that students can comprehend and learn. They have to be creative and think of various ways to teach the information, so that students do not get bored, fall behind, or swerve off-track. Thinking of lesson plans that are creative and engaging is difficult, and takes a significant amount of time. It is a very rigorous job that I believe many people, especially the students and parents themselves, take for granted. Without teachers, there would be no such thing as receiving an education. There would be no such thing as having a degree to get a job. What do you think the world would be like if there were no teachers, or if there was not someone to teach kids how to read, how to count, how to solve problems, etc.? I think the world would be in chaos.
As I have been in my classroom this week, I am beginning to realize more about myself as a person, and as an adult. I have tried to do “check-ins” with myself after each school day, and I think to myself, “Is teaching all day, everyday, what I want to do when I graduate?” “Is my heart in it?” “Do I feel comfortable controlling thirty kids at one time and being responsible for teaching them to learn?” “Can I use the skills that I do feel comfortable with in a more effective way other than teaching, such as speech pathology?” By asking myself these questions, I have really tried to dig deep inside of me for the solutions. Right now, my thoughts and feelings about whether to continue to double major, to just stick to education, or just choose speech pathology, are all over the place. Not only do I not know where my true feelings about my future lie, but also, by being in the classroom setting, I have come to realize how shy, nervous, and anxious I become when my pre-service teacher asks me to teach the class. I think my anxiousness is coming from the fear that my students will not understand what I am relaying to them, and in turn, I will fail at doing my job of teaching them. I know how important education is, and I do not want to fail them. I also know life is about taking risks, but then again, I have to think about myself, my true feelings, and my life. I need to find where my heart lies and I need to be able to answer the question, “Am I happy with what I am doing with my life?” with the answer “yes”.
Mr. Earl Carter’s speech the other day was very powerful to me. He asked the group in his speech to “raise your hand if you are willing to give one hundred percent of your time and effort to teaching”. I did not raise my hand. I am trying to reflect on why I did not raise my hand, and I have concluded that I do not know if I am far along enough in schooling to say whether my heart is in teaching or not. Ultimately, I do want to make a difference in young children’s lives, I just do not know if teaching is the way for me to do it. Although my thoughts are still scattered about what I want to do with my life, I do know that this experience has truly changed my life, and I am happy to have taken part in it. No matter what I decide to do, the lessons and experiences I am taking away are so special and valuable. I will cherish them for the rest of my life.